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August 23, 2006

B-Letter days

Filed under: Musings,Top Draws,Whimsy — Santhosh @ 5:39 PM

What they don’t understand about birthdays and what they never tell you is that when you become, say, fifteen, you’re also fourteen, and thirteen, and twelve…. and three,and two, and one. And when you wake up on your fifteenth birthday, you expect to feel fifteen, but you don’t. You open your eyes and everything is just like yesterday, only it’s today. And you don’t feel fifteen at all. You still feel you’re only fourteen. And you are – underneath the year that makes you fifteen.

Like some days when you might cringe and whine and throw a tantrum getting out of bed, that’s the part of you that’s still ten. Or maybe some days you want to go out and play Lock and Key or Seven Stones, that’s just you being twelve. Or maybe some days you might just want to lay your head on your mother’s lap after a good lunch, that’s the part of you that’s five. And maybe one day when you’re all grown up, maybe you will need to cry like you’re three, that’s ok. That’s what I tell people when they say they need to cry. Maybe they are feeling three.

Because the way you grow old is kind of like the layers of an onion, like the rings inside a tree trunk, like those little wooden dolls that fit one inside the other – each year inside the next one. That’s how being fifteen years old is.

You don’t feel fifteen. Not right away. It takes a few days, weeks even, at times even months, before you say Fifteen when they ask you. And you don’t feel smart fifteen, not until you’re almost sixteen. That’s the way it is.

ps : Just in case somebody’s missed the fine print, it’s my birthday, only I’ve just turned 22 today, the 23rd of August 2006. Sigh! 21 seemed to be the dividing line, the Rubicon, between being young and joining the old(er) brigade. (Which is the reason I’ve used 15 here.) Sigh again!
One silver lining : Am now legally OK to get married.
Any ‘volunteers’ for the job? :p



  1. machan, belated Birthday wishes da…ok accepted u are 21 yrs + 374 days now.. 🙂

    Comment by Sathappan Sathappan — August 30, 2006 @ 3:12 PM | Reply

  2. @saththanks da machan;)so belling the CAT huh?and do post something in ur blog da…ps: the thanks was for the 21 + 374days

    Comment by santhosh — August 31, 2006 @ 3:42 AM | Reply

  3. heycool one dashud say one of your best…i mean, one of your better strange theories to pop up

    Comment by vijay — September 8, 2006 @ 10:45 PM | Reply

  4. @vijaysigh!

    Comment by santhosh — August 18, 2007 @ 2:49 AM | Reply

  5. Oh my Gosh!This is just awesome!

    Comment by samuel — August 21, 2007 @ 1:09 AM | Reply

  6. nanbaaa…. pirandha naal null vaazhthukkal…birthdays could be like cakes… cakes have layers… paint has layers… Operating systems have layers… coats have layers… OGRES have layers!!!! :-)anyways, un gmail kandupudikka mudile (it isn’t in the first 2 lines is it!) so ingiye solren about the trip- end Nov-Dec na SURE!!! jus drop me the where n when n stuff… (my mail on my top left corner of my blog!)

    Comment by Mark IV — August 21, 2007 @ 11:07 AM | Reply

  7. @samuel,thanx. i guess

    Comment by santhosh — August 22, 2007 @ 12:50 AM | Reply

  8. @markivthankoo ma, but b’day’s yet to come for 2 more days anyway

    Comment by santhosh — August 22, 2007 @ 12:51 AM | Reply

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